i was lost but i know my directions....

so i havent blogged in a long time....i have a myspace and so i kinda forgot about my blog but im going to start postin again...

but anyways...this kinda goes along with kevins blog...as most of you know my life took a huge turn when me and keivn broke up and i was pretty dependent on him.whatever problem i had i went to him and he was there for me and helped me out.well when we broke up it hit me pretty hard because when i had a problem i didnt know who to go to.and before kevin helped me find God i was pretty much doing whatever he did. drinkin, havin sex, gettin into trouble.and i hated it. and now its startin to get alot better.when we were together if i screwed up he was there to yell at me and tell i did wrong and help me out and would pretty much make me feel bad for what i did and i would think you knowif hes this mad at me what would God thinkwhat about my parents his parents.you know.and when i thought about them it killed me because i dont want to disappoint any of them. and i did and i know i did. and now when i get invited to parties orto go smoke weed(which ive never done before thats why they wanted me to do it)i think to myself you know if kevin got that upset with me over something kinda big but not this big what would he say now...what would my parent,his parents,my friends, my family, my church, you know what would they say.and then it hits me what would God say. and then when that comes to me i can flat out say no.they might call me names or whatever but that doesnt matter.God, my friends and family and my church are amazing.&& love yall so much! i was lost but i know my directions...thanks to you guys.

the weather...

so its suppose to snow alot and i hope we get it so we will have no school...thats the only reason why i dont like that cold weather but if it gets us out of school.yay for it.but im ready for the warm weather....im ready to go fishin.and of coarse.....WEAR MY FLIP-FLOPS!!!so yeah i cant wait!!!

HEY!!!!

so i finally got my computer back....so now i can post again!!!! yay.so how about them COLTS!!!!! i am so glad they won.boo bears.but anyways i thought they were going to lose because they were playin like crap at first but of course they pulled it together and won the SUPER BOWL!!!so yeah it is nice to be posting again!! love you guys

well first of all MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!even though its the day after.well this will be my last blog for a couple of days because my computer is messed up.so im at my grandmas and im leaving today.so i just wanted to tell everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

Thought these were cute so i thought i would say Merry Christmas early.i will see you all at church on Sunday!!!

my update

im doing a little better.the pain is getting worse but they said it would before it gets better.i just hope the steriods kick in fast!!!im still swollen and cant button my pants,which it makes me look 10x the size i really am.i went christmas shopping today and got alot accommplished.i did a little to much walkin and im stiff now because it hurts to move!!!but it will get better and i CANT WAIT UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!but yeah thats my update!and if anybody sees lisa tell her i hope she is doing good!

my doctor visit...

i went and had my epiderual done today and it was not fun.i am in so much pain right now it is crazy.i was so scared to get it done.they numbed me but i could still feel it.i didnt cry though.im proud of myself.i prayed before i went in there.and i did better than i thought i would of.so its all done and over with now.thats all that matters.i just hope i dont have to have it done again!