my update

im doing a little better.the pain is getting worse but they said it would before it gets better.i just hope the steriods kick in fast!!!im still swollen and cant button my pants,which it makes me look 10x the size i really am.i went christmas shopping today and got alot accommplished.i did a little to much walkin and im stiff now because it hurts to move!!!but it will get better and i CANT WAIT UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!but yeah thats my update!and if anybody sees lisa tell her i hope she is doing good!

my doctor visit...

i went and had my epiderual done today and it was not fun.i am in so much pain right now it is crazy.i was so scared to get it done.they numbed me but i could still feel it.i didnt cry though.im proud of myself.i prayed before i went in there.and i did better than i thought i would of.so its all done and over with now.thats all that matters.i just hope i dont have to have it done again!

SANTA'S REDNECK WORKSHOP!!

I thought this was so cool.this was also at that place.this is suppose to be santas workshop.if that aint redneck i dont know what it is.lol

4 acres of CHRISTMAS LIGHTS!!!

so my mom and step dad found this place that has 4 ACRES OF CHRISTMAS LIGHTS!!!it amazing.you can sit in your car and or you can walk around the thing.i did both.its so cool!they have a radio station you turn on in your car and they have it playing out there...well what happens is they lights flash to the beat of the music.its really cool.and they have a nativity set out and they play the song do you know what i know and as they say each piece,like if they said baby jesus,he would light up.it was so cool.and it told bible story and they had like charlie brown askin one of the girls why we celebrate christmas and she tells why.its really cool.i loved it.i tried to get the whole place from the road,thats what the bottom picture is.but i loved it!

so i cut all my hair off.i'm not used to it yet.but its ok.i was wanting to do what mirm did and give it to locks of love but when she cut it i was like 2 in. short from being able to donate it.but i plan on growing it back out and donating it.the only thing i dont like about it is that i cant pull it up without a bunch of hair falling down:(but o well.

its ok i guess.love ya guys!

Amazing

church was amazing today.Hailey got saved someone got baptized and it was just amazing.and ashley norman really knows how to get to you through prayer and her just makes you realize how has happened to you and that you can change if you just believe.i got prayed for today and i feel so good now its crazy what God can do to you in just a couple hours.and i just want to thank everybody for praying for me today.my family doesnt go to church and everybody else that goes to cfc has family there.and for the longest time i sort a felt out of place because i didnt have any family there and then i realized.you guys are my family.Kevin brought me to a church that has people that treat me like one of there children.and i love that.im so glad that im going to church and that im becoming closer to God.even if i have to drive 2 hours to go to church...i refuse to go to another one.lol.you guys are amaziing.and i just thank God that he had brought me to you guys.

and i just want to say thanks angie for the advise.you know what advise im talkin about.

i love you all!!!

Best Friends....?

i think that everybody has that one special guy or girl,maybe even both,that they can tell all there secrets to.the one you share all your memories with, you meet at a pizza place and sit there until the place closes and all ya get done sayin is remember when and then the funny story that comes after that. the one you grow up with and when you get old and your sittin there a rockin in a rockin chair you can still have that one special person you call your best friend.the one you can call when you had a fight with your boyfriend/girlfriend and they can say i know what your going through because they've been there before.it helps to have that person with you all the time.i grew up with a girl from k-9th grade and when i moved we didnt talk for like a year and now some special to me has brought us back together,in a very weird, but special way,and i love them for that.all you ladys can relate to the little moving picture up there.lol.well i've never done the frozen bra thing but you know what i mean....i my best friend i've known since i was 3 her name is bailey(not the one i just got done talking about)...well her and my sister grew up together and then she lived with us for 2 years.well the first time i ever went over to her house with my sister,her and my sister were like "lets play cowboys and indians."and of course i said yes.well they said"you get to be the indian"and of course i agreed again.well i didnt expect what happened next.they tied me to a tree and left me there the rest of the day.the would walk me to the bathroom and then take me right back out to the tree and i couldnt get away there was 2 of them....well they finally let me go because mom called and said that she was on her way to get me.and they said that if i told then they would do it again.so i didnt tell.

anyways.here's the question for you....thank about that one memory that always comes to mind when you thank of your best friend and share it.ok. love ya guys!!!

just want to fill you in...

well to start off HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYBODY!!!!well angie asked me to update on my back and i got the MRI back and i have a herniated disk.i had to have x-rays done so that the spine specialist could see it from a different view and he is sending me to have an epidural done on the 13 of december.which i am not looking forward to.and that is suppose to help releave the pain so that i can do physical theropy.and if that helps then i can get another epidural done so that i can finish phyiscal theropy.but if it doesnt help then i have to have surgery.sohopefully it works.thanks for prayin for me.love ya

so im taking hunters education online so that i can go hunting next year.my brother doesnt believe i can do it...so im just going to prove hime wrong.im a little nervous but im sure it will be fun.i cant wait.im not going to be able to take it unitl next year though becuase it takes 2months for them to send the license to you.but thats long enough for me because then i will have time to practice.it going to be so much fun.hopefully my first deer will be a big buck.

My bad luck...

well i have to go and get another MRI done tomorrow because they think i messed the disks up in my back and i guess when you do that it will shoot pain through your legs....well thats why my knee isnt healing becausing my back is messed up.so if there is something reallly wrong then i have to go and see a spin specialist and have surgery on my back....im just not having very good luck.i just pray that everything will turn out ok and i wont have to have surgery.

Advice please...

thats what someone once said to me...if its meant to be then it will happen.i dontreally kow what to say.i just cant get something off my mind.i've tried talking to people,prayin about it.there's got to be something i'm doing wrong.i need advice from the people that i know give it really good. how do you get over something you love...or someone?if you would just please keep me in your prayers.i just want to get over this because its killin me.

Me and My step brother Mason

this is me and my brother mason.we were shooting bb guns and the picture below is use shooting at the cup and the one under that is the cup when we got done with it.it was pretty messed up.lol.we had fun though. so im glad it was a nice day outAND NOT RAINING!!!! lol.well i just thought i would share this with you.love you guys and i miss you guys.see you this coming weekend.

this is me and mason before mom made us move into the yard(they didnt want use to be in the way incase someone came up the drive)....

This is the cup after we got done with it.

Rain

i dont like the weather right now.it has rained 2 days straight.i wouldnt care if i could go out in play in it.i dont want to get sick.i just wish the sun would come out. it just makes the days so blah...

Thanks....

thanks for always being here for me,loving me for who i am,laughing with me and at me,being stupid together,for the love of your whole family,for church, for bringing me closer to God,for making me realize who I really am,for getting mad at me for being someone im not,for telling me the truth when i ask you if i look like i gained weight,for tellin me if my hair is messed up or my clothes dont look right.im thankful that i know that you will always be here for me when i need someone, or give good advice, or tell me who i can talk to that can help me with my problems if your not around.you are my best friend and i love you so much. you have brought me so close to God and to all of my new family at CFC!!!!if it wasnt for you i wouldnt be the person i am today.i love everybody at church and its all because of you. thanks so much.love ya big buddy!!!

Adding on...

this is adding on to what cortney was saying about the important things in life. she is so right about everything she wrote. we need to hold on to everything important to us because i believe thats what makes us whole...all the little sleep over,holidays,girls night out,the songs that make you laugh,smile,frown,or cry because they remind of a time in your life or thats was playing at a special time in your life, and all the memories of all the boyfriends or girlfriends you've ever had.thats what i think.because te people you do that stuff with arent going to be here all the time and you want something to hang on to.like when i got saved at church and i can remember kevin standing there with me holding my hand.i will always remember that.and that makes me happy that i can look back on that and tell my kids about it and i think that is whats special toever single one of us.all the memories we have play a special part in our lives and it makes us whole.its like the best times are the ones God wants you to remember not that bad ones.i think we remember the best things in life because God wants us to.aleast thats what i think.now its your turn....
what do you think? you tell me if you agree or disagree.

What girls want from there guys

-DONT ACT LIKE A PLAYER IN FRONT OF HER WHEN UR WITH UR FRIENDS
-CALL HER NAMES LIKE BABY, BABE, SWEET HEART, OR BABY GIRL
-MESS WITH HER HAIR
-GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN
-LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT MESSAGES.
-KISS HER IN FR0NT 0F Y0UR FRIENDS.
-TELL HER SHE L00KS BEAUTIFUL.
-L00K HER IN THE EYE WHEN Y0U TALK T0 HER.
-LET HER MESS WITH Y0UR HAIR.
-JUST WALK AR0UND WITH HER.
-INCLUDE HER IN ALL THINGS Y0U D0.
-F0RGIVE HER F0R HER MISTAKES.
-L00K AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE 0NLY GIRL Y0U SEE.
-TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS ST0P.
-H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN Y0U ARE AROUND Y0UR FRIENDS.
-WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT Y0U TELL HER Y0U L0VE HER.
-LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN Y0UR ARMS.
-GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.
-TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE Y0U BACK.
-STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK.
-WATCH HER FAV0RITE M0VIE WITH HER
-KISS HER F0REHEAD.
-GIVE HER THE W0RLD.
-WRITE HER LETTERS.
-LET HER WEAR Y0UR CL0THES.
-WHEN SHES SAD, HANG 0UT WITH HER.
-LET HER KN0W SHE'S IMP0RTANT.
-LET HER TAKE ALL THE PH0T0S 0F Y0U SHE WANTS.
-KISS HER IN THE RAIN.
-CALL HER EVERY NIGHT.
-AND WHEN Y0U FALL IN L0VE WITH HER, TELL HER.
-AND WHEN Y0U D0 TELL HER. L0VE HER LIKE Y0U NEVER L0VED BEF0RE.

NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

i'm not ready for the cold weather:( i want it to be sunny and warm so i can where my flip-flops and shorts and tank tops...its is sooooo cold down here.this is a picture of a tree at my house and i took this in the middle of September.its so crazy....it is suppose to be 28 degrees tomorrow.thats so crazy!!!!the only good thing about the winter time is Christmas...because we get to celebrate Christ birthday and we get presents.but thats the only thing!!!!i just want it to be warm again.

Grandma Benge

well as some of you know kevins Grandma Benge(Toni's mom)is in the hospital for almost 4 days now and they cant figure out what is wrong.one minute shes fine and the next minute shes not doin to good.so if you all will please pray for her and his whole family right now because i know it must be really hard on them.so if you would just pray for them and especially her.I love ya Grandma!!!thanks guys:)

A Poem For Best Friends

FOR THE BEST FRIENDS

seems how everybody needs a best firend right now... i thought this poem could pretty much explains what everyone has to say to there best friends and it probably describes there friendship.

For My Best Friend

This is for you, my best friend, the one person i can tell my soul too Who can relate to me like no other Who I can laugh with to no extents, Who I can cry too when times are tough, Who can help me with the problems of my life.
Never have you turned your back on me Or told me I wasnt good enough Or let me down
I don't think you know what that means to me You have went through so much pain and you still have time For me. And I love you for listening even when inside YOU are dying And I look up too you because you are strong, and caring and beautiful. Even though you don't think you are.
And I hope you know that I am always here To listen to you laugh and cry and help In all the ways that i can And I will try to be at least half the friend you are To me.
I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, with out you. My best friend.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO.....?ME!!!

so...today is my 17th birthday.and this is me and my little brother at our birthday together.i think God everyday that i am alive for all the things in my life.and im just thinkful for all the people in my life.and i am just in such a good mood.i dont really have anything to say.so everybody have a good rest of the day.and God bless you all.love ya